Saturday, February 23, 2008

I LOVE YOU!!!

However, after the answer you gave me today, i finally understand and know your feelings towards me now. I believe i have been a hindrance in your life. Now, i shouldnt hinder you, bother you, disturb you anymore, nor i should harbour anymore wishful thinking towards you.

I have been very stupid. Really really dumb. I should have gotten the hint when you have been trying to avoid me by not picking up my calls and not replying my smses. I dont know why your attitude towards me always changes and differs everytime i talk to you. Sometimes warm, sometimes cold. How ironic!!!! I hate it.

If you want to ignore me, why do you have to plant the seed in me? Why do you want to make me fall for you when you dont even want to have any contact with me? Why why why?

Should i forget about you and carry on with my life? Or should i just do nothing about it and let the seed in me grow into a plant with thorns, prickling the flesh of my heart, causing scars that cannot be healed permanently and blood dripping from the injuries, never get to stop?

You dont know that when i know that you were sick, i was so worried about you. I really do hope to rush to your place and take care of you until you are completely recovered from ur illness. You dont know that i have been thinking of you since we last chatted. You dont know that whatever i do, i hope that you will be present to see it happen. I always hope you could accompany me in everything i do, wherever i go.

This is the first time someone has made me fall into a love trap whereby i helplessly cannot do anything. And why does it has to be you?

To tell the truth, i didnt really mind if it was you, but i just dont understand the way you are treating me.


The more you wan to be loved, the more you will get hurt. And i dont like the feeling of it!!!

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