love.is.more.than.jus.words

2011-03-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. this blog seems to be dead for a long time.. should i start reviving it? zzzz.. see if got time bahx.. my life so boring now coz of the irritating national service.. sianz.

2009-12-23T17:03:00.001+08:00

无意间的我说了不应该说的话
无端端地将你激怒了
我好后悔啊

好不容易得到你的注意
但都毁在我手里

我好想哭
我只想对你说声对不起

2009-12-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

尝试着想把那些不愉快的回忆给埋藏起来
但不知这么搞的它们似乎长了脚似的
一个个都跑上了脑海里
心情一下子都被弄差了
好像重新开始
但这么一直觉得我还在原地踏步。

2009-12-02T22:54:00.001+08:00

忽然之间，心里感到有那么一丝丝失魂落魄的感觉
隐隐约约感觉生活少了那么一丁点什么

2009-12-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. woah.. it has been a long time since i come to blog and write something here.. almost 9 months le u supposed? if im supposed to talk about everything tat happens within these 9 months... it would take like days and nights... lolx.

A level is finally coming to an end. ^^. time to celebrate for J2s lolx.. but i somehow feel very guilty about A lvl.. coz i didnt study?? if i really do badly for it.. i would have to only myself to blame on? for no reason, i seems to have lost the stamina for studying. i cant seems to concentrate like i did for prelims.. wat i know is i keep falling asleep when i see exam papers and everything? sianz

now.. i should be studying for like the bio mcq tat is coming up on thurs to pull my grades up? but then.. i see the qns i feel like sleeping le.

been working to earn as much money as possible b4 i go in NS sia.. lolx.. so tiring..

would prom be a blast this fri??

P.S.. i know my post suck this time XP

2009-02-04T21:58:00.001+08:00

好不知所措啊
今天不小心得罪了你
让你生气了
好后悔好内疚

心情变得很乱很低落
变得什么话都不想说

我现在该这么做

2008-11-17T22:18:00.002+08:00

What a bloody day..!!

Have you ever wonder how books can make you bleed? lolx.. It is easy.. just take your fingers and hit it against a hardcover book. And tata~!!! You get a bloody thumb or watsoever.. lolx

Was like doing my usual stock taking chores.... And without looking.. I hit a damn thick book which is like 4 times the H2 Economics book and a HARD cover... bleeding like hell la.. touch water can like pain for 5 mins? lolx...

Hate books now.. Made me lost so much things.. Made me lost BLOOD which is like consists so many things? EG. water, RBC, WBC, platelets, haemoglobin, iron, carbon dioxide, oxygen, hydrocarbonate ions, etc etc.. lolx..

I think I'm super random now.. Maybe becoz holiday syndrome? lolx.

2008-11-12T23:15:00.001+08:00

woah.. eng post for now.. lolx. since everyone was like saying tat chinese de where got ppl wanna read... =.=".....

very busy and tiring day today sia.....

bio lecture early morning was a bore... the professor being invited from NUS gave us a talk on sweat with is like so boring and somehow inrelevant to us? (who will want to knw tat sweat actually contains 100++ proteins and it might jus be able to heal wounds?) lolx.. had a hard time making myself awake like most ppl are.. lolx.. even the jokes tat he cracked doesnt make me laugh..

math lect was okay... kept myself awake by eating sweets.. like tat is the onli for me to stay awake? lolx.. had a hard time following the lect initially.. since still not in the state of lect yet. but the lecturer let us off early.. lolx.. THANKS!!

according to the plan that michelle had told me, we are supposed to stay back after sch after the math lect to celebrate diane and minling late bday. but we drag and drag and drag.. in the end becky jus gave some cookies tat she baked to diane and tat it... lolx... and TATA~!!! went off to eat at the coffee shp with the whole lot 8 of us.. first time gals more than boys.. lolx..

went to kovan for some bowling and pool action.. lolx.. but sadly with the absence of sushan and michelle who had workshops to attend to... PITY YOU~!!! T.T.... lolx...

a great time though... play quite well for pool.. first time.. lolx... bowling was bad in the first game... couldnt find the suitable ball and all the balls are like so oily? which makes my hand oily as well... couldnt get the feel of the game as well.. lolx.. but the exciting part of the second game when zuyao like saying confidently tat he gonna beat zhiyong and thrash us all? in the end we somehow won him by getting all the strikes and spares? lolx... THIS IS FUN~! ^^

went to bugis to wait for the CHATTER 5.... THEY ACTUALLY CHANGED THE MEETING VENUE TO VIVOCITY AFTER I HAD REACHED BUGIS.. ARGH~!! >.<.... stilll it has been a long time since we meet again... (since march or june arh? i forget le. can anyone tell me? lolx...) HAD A SUPER GREAT TIME LAUGHING.... lolx.. didnt feel really hungry... lolx... this most funny part was the last part when we separated as me and RJ went home first.. YH screamed when we boo-ed them from the back? lolx..and everyone was then looking at us? SO EMBARRASSING LA... YH!!!! ALL YOUR FAULT!!!! lolx..... they tried to do the same thing to us though.. as they went to bugis suddenly.... BUT FAILED>.. woots~!!!! haha...

had a superb fun day.. eh CHATTER 5... remember to update me about the outing on christmas and the performance by YH... let go to the one at causeway point instead of paragon which is nearer or u wan it at paragon so can go to shop after tat? lolx.......^^

2008-11-06T02:39:00.003+08:00

你认为我这么对你我的心里会好受吗
你认为我想这么做吗

好痛好痛我真的好痛

尝试将事情给冲淡没想到越弄越惨
我真的不是故意的也不是有意的

但这能挽回一切吗

2008-11-01T23:19:00.001+08:00

崩溃了
这几天我崩溃了
伤心也过伤心了
哭也哭过了
连续两天的哭我的眼睛好麻好痛
而没想到的是竟在家外哭了
昨日是如此今日也如此还哭了差不多三次吧
你说我是不是很傻

知道你想要离开到国外继续升学的消息
完完全全震惊了我
好大的一个打击

不想要你离去但小小的一个我又有什么能耐使你留下来呢
你懂得做出决定像我这种旁人的话你应该不会听进耳吧

偶尔说起话来甜蜜的你难道就要这样离开了吗
真的不会记住我们也不会留恋我们了吗
真的忍心忘了这里的一切吗

好难过好难受啊

2008-10-29T21:00:00.004+08:00

好彷徨啊
一分钟没联络到你时好孤单好寂寞不知所措
虽知道你忙忙着上课忙着停课
自私的我还不停地打扰不停地烦你
我这么做是不是很讨人厌

好自私的我
往往想霸占你所有的时间所有的空档
好抱歉非常抱歉
我已不知该做些什么了。。。 =(

2008-10-28T22:12:00.003+08:00

认识你似乎走进梦境里
听见你的声音犹如天使之音
你的笑声顿时将我的黑暗世界给照的明亮无比
好想好想将你融入我的生活
你愿意吗？

2008-09-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

忽然间
觉得很空白似乎迷失了方向
觉得很迷茫不知道到底发生了什么

心隐隐地痛着
手不知不觉被握得紧紧的
在掌上留下了深深的凹迹
但也不觉得疼痛
难道我麻木了吗

2008-09-22T18:51:00.002+08:00

我
不知道自己是否做对了
在这种重要时刻
竟然让我喜欢上了你

是我自作多情吗
我愚蠢无比

我应该放弃吗

我不知道

因为我现在真的真的很乱

2008-09-20T22:58:00.003+08:00

偶然得遇见你使我知道那么一个和我有着相同命运的人

和你聊起来十分愉快畅快也许是因为我们是同样的人

与你的简讯使我哭笑不得暂且忘掉了我一切烦恼问题

能够认识你是我的荣幸也庆幸着你给机会让我认识了你

但是现在最重要的是你能振作起来忘了不愉快的往事

2008-09-07T18:01:00.002+08:00

哭我哭了哭得很痛苦
痛心如刀割的痛
泪已将我的视线给弄得模糊了
爱彻底将我打败了

离开你也许对我们俩都有好处
只要你快乐我也快乐
只要你被欺负我会挺身而出为你报仇
不想你伤心

即使我有多么想要在你的身旁
但我不愿意看到你与他分开
在这我诚心地祝福你们

2008-09-07T16:11:00.004+08:00

我不知道喜欢上你应不应该
但我还是情不自禁地喜欢上你了
你的笑声笑容眼睛小手脸
让我无法忘记
整天想着你
但我知道我与你是不可能的
所以我并不抱得太的期望
因为期望越大失望越大伤得越深

2008-08-17T22:20:00.002+08:00

been a tiring 5 days.. WUSHU COMPETITION... LOL.... been participating and supporting those involved... weekdays have to rush there after school and stay up till late night.. but doesnt matter though.. it was an eye opening for me.. first time lei.. wat can i expect?

hmm.. wanna know the results? lolx.. my coach is "damn good" in coaching us lor... let me see... i think we did "exceptionally well" this time.. over the 5 days.. coach got 9 "champion" this year... woots.

hmm for wed.. we got the first one in female gunshu.. for thurs.. 2 champions in both nanguan (male)and qi xie dui lian.. for sat.. 3 champions for chang quan(male), nanguan (female) and ji ti quan... for sun... 3 champions for nangun female, du shou dui lian and jianshu female....

in addition, nanguan male we got first and second, qi xie tui lian and du shou dui lian we got the first 4 positions.. cool rite?

haha.. but then all these are counted from the bottom.. haha...

in conclusion we didnt do very well... but this is the first time for most of us.. so it didnt really matter.. but wat realy matter is tat everyone put in their very best in this competition le... especially the first timer girls like ZhongWei who hit her head like more than 5 times and ShinYi who had ur knee bruised...

Anyway... good job guys.. even though we didnt win this time.. doesnt mean we cant win next time rite? so let jiayous for the 2 competition next year bahx.. and better dun let coach disappointed le... ^^

2008-07-28T21:09:00.003+08:00

After the answer you gave me today, i finally understand and know your feelings towards me now. I believe i have been a hindrance in your life. Now, i shouldnt hinder you, bother you, disturb you anymore, nor i should harbour anymore wishful thinking towards you. I have been very stupid. Really really dumb. If you dont want to be with me, then why do you have to plant the seed in me? Why do you want to make me fall for you? Why why why? Should i forget about you and carry on with my life? Or should i just do nothing about it and let the seed in me grow into a plant with thorns, prickling the flesh of my heart, causing scars that cannot be healed permanently and blood dripping from the injuries, never get to stop? You dont know that when i know that you were sick, i was so worried about you. I really do hope to rush to your place and take care of you until you are completely recovered from ur illness. You dont know that i have been thinking of you since we last chatted. You dont know that whatever i do, i hope that you will be present to see it happen. I always hope you could accompany me in everything i do, wherever i go. This is the first time someone has made me fall into a love trap whereby i helplessly cannot do anything. And why does it has to be you? To tell the truth, i didnt really mind if it was you, but i just dont understand the way you are treating me. The more you wan to be loved, the more you will get hurt. And i dont like the feeling of it!!!

Do you know that i have been trying my very hard to control myself from crying in school today? I tried to get you out of my mind, but the harder i try, the easier for your image to get back in. i hardly spoke in school today. Acutally i didnt want to. But my mum force me to. I have no mood to study in school when my mind isnt in the right mood. By right, today i should be feeling very tired cause i didnt sleep well last night. But it is only until the last period of the day.. Then i collapse in class. I dunno why i am doing all this.. This is so not me.. Why do this has to happen.? Can we do something to solve all this? Can we walk through this together? Ignore what other people say, what other do to stop us? Can you?

I wanna thank everyone today for showing me your concern. 0804 and mrs chong, THANKS!. i will try to take note of this. But please bear with it for few days okay?

2008-07-27T22:45:00.003+08:00

been such a long time that i have last updated.... been busy been so tired been so crazy...

didnt done for mid years.. did very very very vry very badly.. 3 pass 3 fail... A D E U U U.. do comment on the grades.. haix.. i gonna regret my JC life like i used to in regretting for my O level.

wushu. planning to quit everything.. dun wanna particiapte in anymore competitions when it is gonna affect my studies..i cnat risk it anymore if i wanna take 4H2 like now...

i dunno wat to say anymore now.. practically no more mood... haix...

anyway. to those who readd my blog... if u dun see me going to school anymore or going online.. dun be surprised.. coz XY will not be on surface anymore.. he will be gone and disappear from earth forever... ^^

2008-07-08T00:04:00.002+08:00

hmm.. been a long time since updated.. haha.. this time is requested by diane though. me dun hv time now to update much.. woots~~!

hmm.. been busy with lots of stuffs.. mid years, competitions, project work, and most impt is the very special person.. haha... woots.. gonna named the person as MFBF here., hahaha.. no one know who is this person except the person............

it has been a long time i felt such a feeling again.. and this time the feeling is damnnnnnn strong.. i wonder y... if nv see this person.. me will go crazy.. haha.. siaoz liaoz.. lolx.. i hope this will last.. never felt so in love with someone before. haha.. hmm.. this person know about my feelings can le..

got to get going before me sleep in lessons again.. =(.. haha^^

2008-05-19T21:55:00.001+08:00

默默地哭泣，默默忍受一切折磨，你能够了解我内心的挣扎吗？我从不向你说，但偶尔会表示出一些暗示或提示给你，不过你从来都无法察觉。是你麻木，还是我的提示不够明显？有时，我不知为了你哭泣，为了你与家人吵架，对身边的人漠不关心，这一切值得吗？

你从不有过任何主动，没错的话，大多时候（也许是每一次），都是我开始主动。你常说你忙，没空，难道每天都是这样的吗？那么你要如何解释你哪来的时间去看些闲杂的录影片。你的麻木令我十分反感，有时候我不知应该继续下去吗？你有空看布落格，上网，谈天，为何没时间陪我？难道我不值得拥有你宝贵的时间吗？

即使我有多么的忙，我都会尽量与你联络。但你对我的冷淡使我心灰意冷。有时我想结束这一切，那么我可以脱离这一切问题，但我都会给自己找理由给你机会，不过我又能够继续瞒骗自己多久呢？

你说你喜欢我，爱我，这是真的吗？我看不是。你说过会尽量陪我，但请你告诉我，你几时陪过我，几时找出给我与你相处的时间？即使是短短的五分钟不停泄地交谈，我也会心满意足。可是那么短的五分钟我都不能拥有吗？这是奢侈吗？你常常在前两分钟就不理我了。若你移情别恋，请你告诉我，我能够理解。

你对我的诺言，从我们认识以来，都没有一个做到。我已开始绝望了。偶尔你给我一丝的希望，但这希望都无法长久。刚开始你对我 “热情” ，如今你似乎不将我放在眼里，我一文不值吗？我到底做错了什么？

2008-05-18T22:10:00.003+08:00

唉！不知已经过了多久，我的心灵越变越空虚了。这令我不知所措，让我无可下手。周身的孤单，令我十分不自在。有时候我想抱头痛哭，将内心里一切切不愉快的事情给发泄出来。偶尔我好想崩溃，想要一了百了，那么我可以脱离一切烦恼。这也许是最傻，但也是最实际的办法。

学校功课的繁重，课外活动的负担，家庭的关系，与其它琐事都让我十分懊恼。

心灵上的空虚，又有谁来填补。无法驱赶的寂寞紧紧围绕着我。在学校我看起来似乎没事，但会有谁明白我的问题。外表看似坚强，内心脆弱，你能看的出来吗？

2008-03-29T20:58:00.007+08:00

SRY SARAH AND RJ TAT I WASNT ABLE TO BE AT THE AC FAIR WITH BOTH OF YOU!!!

hmm... today quite tirin lorx...

how should i describe events for today?

morn, almost got lost coz duno how to go to the CCAB for the NY Sports Carnival... cant find the bus tat will bring me to the location. almost cried out.. so lame rite?? wahaha

but fortunately, was able to reach there.. though the reportin time i had to reach i was late. almost past CCAB coz i cant see where the buildin until i saw some NY ppl.. woots.

was in Touch Rugby. 0804 won in frisbee and T.R. duno abt orienting.. nv heard anything from them lorz.

after tat went to hougang for lunch.. where is fun part of the day begins. Ate at Ajisen Ramen. after our orders, we danced NY 30th and half of 29 SC dance. After our food. we danced the 3 mass dances again.. when payin the bill.. we danced again.. then we went to a void deck and we DANCED AGAIN... WOOOOOTS.

we are like sooooooo enthu in NY dances.. but the embarrassin fact is tat everyone is lookin at us... soo MALU.. haha.. but then it was all fun...

hmmm... a brief review.. coz too tired to elaborate more.

did i mention tat we danced at the CCAB also. but in a shaded area... however, there is full of Raffles ppl.. im sure we have became a laughing stock for them.

2008-03-26T20:32:00.003+08:00

Love comes in different flavours: sweet, sour, bitter, spicy. Each taste has its own unique sort of feelings and gan jue.

Sweet: the romantic period whereby parties feel the love for each other, the care and concern shown, the times where the loved one are continously appearing in one's mind for no reason, leading perhaps to lovesick. The presence of each other company is definitely comforting to one when both couldnt meet each other for quite a period of time.

Spicy: the passion of love for each other, the hotness level of the relationship, the committment tat is ready to be placed into the current relationship one will be in now, the initial feelings for each other when both get together into a relationship.

Bitter: the periods and times when both parties miss each other, the "torture" of not being able to meet each other, the times when both parties argue and unable to come to a conclusion, the times when both parties require a timeout which is requested by a party so tat he/she can think thoroughly about certain issues.

Sour: the times of jealousy arise when one couldnt hv the opportunity to spend time with his/her partner while others get the chance to. the selfishness, the possessiveness, the jealousness, the anger, the fear of being dumped while the person runs away and be with someone else. the period of uncertainty, the inability to place full trust though one wants to on the partner, due to th fact tat the relationship is not stable, not long enough , not really wat both the parties wanted it to be, not suitable for each other, incompatiable, etc.

NOTE: wat i wrote maybe be nonsensical, or watsoever. it is definitely grammatically wrong and it may mean no sense to. i jus dunno wat im doin and thinkin when im writin this post out.

2008-03-26T20:26:00.001+08:00

IM GETTING SOOOOO EMO NOWADAYS.....

And im startin to 'hate' 0804 le.. coz the whole class except dalvin(who doesnt know wat is going on) is hiding a secret from me. and no matter how i force it out from them. they jus wouldnt say it. hate it hate it hate it... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what is going on tmr tat i couldnt know wat will be happening? im gonna talk back my words durin the level camp. initially i said "let love each other instead of hatin each other." now i wan to change it to "let hate each other instead of lovin each other."

2008-03-18T21:35:00.004+08:00

i dunno whether i made the right choice to go into NY anot.. Since after march in NY, things haven been really good for me. Though my class are a great bunch of people, but there are some things and some memories that i dun wish to remember or have it.

been missin PJ since the very first day i enter NY.even though i crash the orientation in PJ, it jus made me miss it more instead of lettin me treat it as a farewell night for it. I missed the people there, the frens, teachers, the environment, the canteen, the lecture threatre, the parade square, the window, the santuary, etc etc.

though stayin in NY wasnt a bore, but recent events made me hope that if i had stayed in PJ. none of it will happen. i dun wish to elaborate about these events(sry to those who are readin this. but the person may know who am i referring to.).

waitin and waitin, my patience is truly running out.. definitely. i could no longer take the waitin anymore. it jus kept makin me unbearable.

JC wasnt as easy as i initially expected. Esp when im takin 4H2 now. i dunno how am i gg to balance my studies and my frens in future if i still dun concentrate on my sch work and keep thinkin of something else....

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-23T21:48:00.004+08:00

I LOVE YOU!!!

However, after the answer you gave me today, i finally understand and know your feelings towards me now. I believe i have been a hindrance in your life. Now, i shouldnt hinder you, bother you, disturb you anymore, nor i should harbour anymore wishful thinking towards you.

I have been very stupid. Really really dumb. I should have gotten the hint when you have been trying to avoid me by not picking up my calls and not replying my smses. I dont know why your attitude towards me always changes and differs everytime i talk to you. Sometimes warm, sometimes cold. How ironic!!!! I hate it.

If you want to ignore me, why do you have to plant the seed in me? Why do you want to make me fall for you when you dont even want to have any contact with me? Why why why?

Should i forget about you and carry on with my life? Or should i just do nothing about it and let the seed in me grow into a plant with thorns, prickling the flesh of my heart, causing scars that cannot be healed permanently and blood dripping from the injuries, never get to stop?

You dont know that when i know that you were sick, i was so worried about you. I really do hope to rush to your place and take care of you until you are completely recovered from ur illness. You dont know that i have been thinking of you since we last chatted. You dont know that whatever i do, i hope that you will be present to see it happen. I always hope you could accompany me in everything i do, wherever i go.

This is the first time someone has made me fall into a love trap whereby i helplessly cannot do anything. And why does it has to be you?

To tell the truth, i didnt really mind if it was you, but i just dont understand the way you are treating me.

The more you wan to be loved, the more you will get hurt. And i dont like the feeling of it!!!

2008-02-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

I MISS PJC ORIENTATION.... AND ALSO CHATTER 5!!!!

2008-02-23T00:10:00.003+08:00

this post is for 22/2/2008 (which is yesterday.. haha)

i simply love the orientation at PJC... O2 was far more better than O1... everyone was so HIGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS SO FUNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! best ever in my life....WOAH!!!! I SIMPLY LOVE IT!!!!!

i went to appeal at PJC this afternoon str after i ended my lesson at NYJC.... the guard seems to like believe the reason i gave him which is the same as 21/2 whereby i crash PJ too.. Join yuhui clan for cheers songs and everything....

the orientation finale was wat im expectin for my purpose for crashin into PJC. i simply love the finale this time around. i was super HIGH.... but the sad part is that it rained.. but still it didnt wash away our highness... i was screamin like hell and ppl were all lookin at me sarah and yuhui...

fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun... this is wat i can say about the finale... though at one point.. i did feel wan to cry...

HOWEVER, the prob now is tat PJC is acceptin me to study at the college... but then NYJC is offerin me 4H2.. so confused.. dunno wat to choose.. and AJC is still not givin me a response... will be callin them up later at a later time...

P.S. I HAVE A TERRIBLE SORE THROAT NOW... THE SCREAMINGS ARE MAKIN ME PAY... BUT THEY ARE WORTHWHILE.... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

2008-02-15T00:00:00.001+08:00

I GONNA GET KILLED BY SARAH TODAY!!!

2008-02-14T23:47:00.004+08:00

it Valentine's Day.!!!

woke up damn early this morning jus to go to sch for the mass and fun dance. i was like thinkin.. how to get so high as everyone was durin the orientation... in the end i didnt dance. onli a group og ppl dance onli..

receive presents from Chatter 5.. haha.. THANKS ALL FOR U!! (i think this is the second time im receivin valentine presents after from Amanda... haaha)

poned PE... so fun... used the time to try to catch up with my bio work. but then ms ng didnt come today.. sianz.. do the work le also no use.. coz she wont be gg thru it tmr either.. coz there is a quiz tmr and i haven study it yet... wahahahaha!!!

Chatter 5 stayed back after sch for the usual chit chattin sessions.. so fun.. played with marshmallows and sparkling juice... haha.. maybe we should try more of diff things too..

As usual... the girls are still in the lovesick conditon... both yuhui and sarah are gettin from bad to worse... rekha is improvin le i think.. TMR.. we are gg to make them malu.. and so will the girls...

im gonna huo chu qu for the last few days in PJ... hv to make myself leave behind special and unforgettable memories... haha

2008-02-13T22:26:00.002+08:00

情能够随时找得到吗？乌鸦反晡是一种孝道的亲情，朋友守望相助是人们之间坚韧不拔的友情，但是什么才能够叫做爱情？双方给予对方表面上的需要而已，还是给予心灵上的寄托？或者两者兼是？真正色爱情需要有表示吗？还是要心灵相通？不过，心灵相通难道就是咱们的真命天子吗？只不过是碰巧，双方不谋而合罢了？

人间爱情难道这么难得到吗？一个人多少艰辛万苦才能尝到那甜蜜的果实？当一个人被爱情伤得痛不欲生时，会有那么一个守护神来保护和照顾吗？会有那么一个真命天子来将这一切的痛苦给消除吗？

永恒的爱情在哪？
坚固的爱情在哪？
真诚的爱情在哪？

2008-02-13T19:55:00.006+08:00

it has been a long time since i last posted.. which is after the choosin of the desired JC which im unable to get in anyway.. haha... suddenly feel like stayin in PJC... feel more as a family there... it weird to go to other sch to make other frens and hv our own gang again.... Chatter 5 is fun all along... haha... never ever stop talking... kekez..

however, our gang has been influnced by the lovesick yu hui. everyday, every hour, every minute, every second, every microsecond, she is thinkin of that guy (M**g *i* aka Sp***y/P**a* Be**/O***g **an)..... and now... rekha kit yeng sarah are totally influenced now. rekha is in love with J** M**g, Sarah is in love with P**b** T***, Kit Yeng is in love with Ru***ll.haha...

all blushes when they see their E.C (except for sarah..tat wat she told me... dunno whether to believe it anot)... haha...

suddenly i feel so evil talkin about them.. haha.. but im rank 3 in chatter 5 in terms of talkin.. haha... so i think it doesnt matter.. anyway.. no one reads this anyway.. hahahaha...

PAE period is endin soon le... Chatter 5 is gg to seperate soon... which is an unfortunate event to happen... none of us wan to end this... T.T.... but then.. hope we stil can hang out even though we are in different JCs...

ONCE A CHATTER 5, ALWAYS A CHATTER 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. Amanda gave me a valentine present in advance... hmm... first time in my life recievin a valentine present.. and tat was the first one... how wonderful.. haha.. but why can i do when im in a boys school for 4 years. definitely we cant celebarte valentine..coz it wil be damn weird... haha.. i wonder y she wan to give me the present so early.. wan to crash AJ??? haha... most likely to see the guy she likeeee!!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

a totally beat up day for me.... 12 hrs outside with my OG frens... im siaoz liao..

morn wake up so early so can go there early.. but then woke up late and watch pretty cure on kids central.. haha.. then rush to bus stop.. thinkin late liao.. die le.. but then.. im still the first one to reach the Jurong Entertainment Centre... sianz... i rush also no use lor... penny and sandy came next.. followed by eugene then jing er.. but wen to the room in kbox first without waitin for jing er. haha.. coz she is late and we wan sing long long...

sianz.... all the songs they chose i nv listen b4 de.. and they keep forcin me to sing with the mic which i dun wan to... haha.. in the end i onli use to sing one song... "Xiang Tai Duo"...haha but none of them know... the pathetic thing is tat all the songs i pick.. none of them know how to sing it.. so sad sia...

then wen to MJ hse for fun... haiz.. the thing is tat today so little ppl come for teh OG outing... (is it that our OG is breakin apart le????there may be a possibility lor.. haha)... play cards mahjong and everything we can think of there...stayed from 3 plus all the way till 9 bah... so long sia... i already half dead le... haha... nv hv dinner also...

meet my frens and ate at KFC.. haha... but still not full sia... but didnt care.. and now i suddenly dunno wat to say liao... crappin all the way le... hahaha..... nonsense nonsense nonsense.. rubbish rubbish rubbish... hhaha... i crazy sia...

2008-01-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

woah, O level results were out today.. haha.... damn scared and nervous on my way to sch... had been clenchin on to my bag... kekekz..

the long awaited time had came and with the usual speechs, haha.. results come out le... 14 ppl out of the top 20student come from our class.. or maybe more.. nv counted properly... so happy.. too bad i wasnt one of them.. (but i did hope that i was... haha... jus kiddin)...our class did so well..

gotten 12.. is it a good score?? i dunno.. wanted 10..then i can go AJC, NYJC ACJC ASCI CJC PJC.. perhaps NJC or VJC too.. haha.. but wat was done cantbe undone...

eng chs and phys grades were really unexpected... all gotten B3... tot will fail eng and phys... coz i totally screw them.. not tat i didnt screw the others up.. but then not as much as i did for eng and phys... so was really happy...

now duno wat sch to choose... poly all courses can take.. and so for ITE... hmm.. then in JC.. all can take except those i nv take b4 in sec.. how i wish i got 10 point. everything will be much more easier... sianz....

haiz... now i guess is to make a wise decision as to which JC to go... and here comes A level soon.. mus prepare liao...

2007-11-21T22:20:00.001+08:00

had a wonderful day today with jak denny and lester... it had been a long time since we went out together.. guess 2 years le.. or maybe more....

meet up at dhoby ghaut (hope i spelt this correctly)... then change place to marina square... bought our tickets for the bee movie first.. before decidin which resturant to have our lunch... starvin since i hadnt ate dinner... finally after walkin in circles... we settled down at Hans.. had chicken chop same as jak.. lester is forever such a food-waster... buy le definitely nv finish his food.... haiz... then went watchin move.. he actually finish the hotdog he bought for the movie.. gosh

havin with 45 mins before the movie starts, went to arcade to play first.... dun hv the game machine i wanted to play though...

movie was okay i guess... quite funny bah... but lester slept durin the movie...wasted all his money to sleep in an air conditioned room... haha

played bowlin after that... wasnt at my best for the first game... i think onli 50++... the second game was fine... scored 127.. the last 2 strikes i got should be in the front...then the final score will be higher...

went to arcade again after 2 games of bowling... wan to play more.. but the rest sianz le.. complainin hand pain... but then nothing to play le... therefore went to mac for a chat... spilled a lot of beans out... similar to last time which josh marc garrett and me had.... haha... talked abt the stuffs that we onli know... i said some stuffs tat we had last time... hope josh marc and garrett wont mind...

had to rush thru the friendship book then jak wan us to write... wrote it in chn... hope he will be able to find someone to translate for him.. haha... my handwriting tat time really sucks....

jak is gg back to thailand for good.. and maybe garrett will miss him??? haha...he wan to study something in a college in america which i forget wat is it... will i miss him??? hope i will though... haha

2007-11-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

it has been 4 days since o lvl has ended and i am bored to death... there is nothing to do at home... nothing to study... how i hope i am still studyin now.. my parents wan me to work... either at my uncle's company or a job that they found for me(which i jus hv to go for an interview)...

but the journey durin the o lvl had been a regretful one for me... didnt study hard for it.. and after the talk on PAE... i regret of not studyin hard... been slackin throughout the o lvl... though the papers seems to be easy except the engliah paper...

review of the subjects took durin the o lvl...

English:
Paper 1 and 2 have been a terror for me.... didnt know how to write the compo for the situational writing... the compre passages esp passage A are terrible... almost slept halfway thru... kyung asked me why i do so slow... he saw me rushing thru the paper durin the last 5 mins.. when i haven started doing summary...haha... replied him i sleepin durin the paper... kekez...

Higher Chinese:
Another screwed up paper... rushing thru the compo.. tot i hv enough time to finish my essay... but then hv to change my story plot in the last time... sianz... sure a lot of marks gone... then the paper 2 didnt finish too.. sianz... left less than 30 mins i still hv 40 marks undone.... includin a summary... so angry at the end of the paper... shockin to hear elijah, wilson and wei yong say they can get A for HMT... so sad...

Elementary Mathematics:
Paper 1 is easy.. at least 70/80... but then Paper 2 isnt wat i thought it would be... easy as paper 1.... a tough paper... more than 10 marks on proving... which is my weakest.... nonetheless.. i still think i can get an A for it...

Additional Mathematics:
haiz... easy paper but i flunked it... didnt dare to use certain methods which are used by a lot of ppl in the end when we discussed them... scared that i will be wrong usin such methods... sianz... maximum onli an A2 i think...

Chemistry:
The paper overall was okay... except paper 2... which i screw up all the giveway qns... eg the qns wan chloride test but then i wrote nitrate test... argh... if i dun screw up the paper 2... i should be able to get an A i guess... haha

Physics:
if i can get a C... i would be damn happy le... dun even know wat i am doing throughout the 3 papers.. jus anyhow whacked... haha... the qns seems to know me... but i dunno them.. hehe... didnt hv much hope for the paper..

Biology:
should be able to get an A2 if i dun do badly for my pract... most ppl cant do the paper 2... which includes me.. haha... but then an A2 should be okay...

Humanities:
a B grade i think... didnt do well for history SBQ and Social Studies SEQ.... nv complete the whole section... at least 14 marks gone for history...and 8 marks from Social Studies... but then bean said that the paper will be moderate like siaoz which i hope so... if not i may even get a C.. haha...

these papers are easy... maybe i too complacent??? i should hv STUDY... how REGRETFUL....

2007-10-02T18:14:00.001+08:00

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2007-10-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

Countdown till the paper for O lvl...

8 more days till Physics Pract
10 more days till Chemistry Pract
15 more days till Biology Pract
21 more days till Additional Mathematics Paper 1
22 more days till Additioncal Mathematics Paper 2
23 more days till Chemistry Paper 2
25 more days till Combined Humanities (History)
28 more days till English Language Paper 1
28 more days till English Language Paper 2
28 more days till Elementary Mathematics Paper 1
29 more days till Elementary Mathematics Paper 2
30 more days till Higher Chinese Paper 1
30 more days till Higher Chinese Paper 2
32 more days till Physics Paper 2
35 more days till Biology Paper 2
35 more days till Combined Humanities (Social Studies)
42 more days till Chemistry Paper 1
42 more days till Physics Paper 1
43 more days till Biology Paper 1

Seems so long but so little time left if i dun fully utilise my time well... wan to score really really well... maybe 8 points...
Bear with all the distraction then everything will be jus fine though but then i cant self control myself..
If i cant get into a JC.. i rather "die"...
i kept concentratin on emath even it is not my weakness but instead one of my strongest.. however, emath seems to be the most appealin thing to do out of the 8 subj...sianz........

2007-09-26T20:45:00.000+08:00

should i follow wat ying qiu said to me durin ss lesson abt prefectin my eng standard usin this blog and try usin the style of writin similar to marc? should i? if so... how am i gg to learn with my limited vocab or should i jus type it all in chn then he cant read...haha...

redo my ss prelims paper for jeffrey chan to mark today.. and the score was 9 marks difference and most of my content are still the same... how can it differ so much... though my part(b) seq is lowered by 1 mark... despite tat... 38/50 is quite a good score for me... nv get so high before....

i think i am neglectin too many subj le... these days onli concentrated on ss eng and chem with a bit of emath... the rest like nv touch and they are my weakest though... hv to buck up.. so much to study... so little time... i wonder those top students with straight As study "enthusiastically" everyday without touchin the computer.... this seems so impossible for me in spite the fact that i can "smash" the computer to scrap or lock myself in the room with no study table to study on lor...

2007-09-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

finally all the results come back to me le.. but then it is so so so so so disappointin... tot will do quite well... but then... haiz.... L1R5=20 which comprised 4+5+1+3+3+4 or 6+5+1+3+3+2... which both add up to the same marks... hope that ms koh can push up my grades for 4 subj... i need to push up eng(54),bio(69),chem(69),higher chn(64) then i can go to CJC which 12 points... but then now... no hope le...

hv to work hard now.... my ex tuition teacher wan me to go for a prize ceremony in durin the o lvl period and i kept giving hints that i am reluctant to participate... keep urging me to go by sayin tat it does hurt by jus takin 3 hours off for the ceremony... should i waste 3 hours by jus takin the prize and then sit down there with the audience and clapped for the followin prize receivers.... dotx... waste of my precious time...

have to work hard... WORK HARD.... to WIN MARCUS AND BEAN... so i go to a better JC than them?haha... the i hv to work doubly hard lor... think i wont be updatin unless i hv the time? better dun say anything too fast yet...

2007-09-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

Less than 1 month away from the theory paper... and approximately 2 week to physics pract exam... time is runnin out and i am still waitin for the day of the start of the o lvl to come... planned my study timetable le... but then this stupid computer keeps distractin me... sianz.... though i dunno y i use the com for... but there seems to be a kind of force attractin me to it(maybe i hv weak intermolecular force oF attraction with the com)....shOuld i jus SmaSH this com and buy a new one after my o lvl?????

always hv the drive to start my muggin session but then as i go on with the studyin... my "engine" sEems to hV lost its fUeL.... with SO manY comPETitorS compEtIN For a vaCaNCY In jc... (my KEYBOaRD IS spoilt again).... my chances of gettin into a good oNE is Like -100%... unless my ENG GET an A1 and mY CHS A1... then I mAy StIlL hV tHE chanCe....

wan TO win marc and bean badly... but then i onli can win them in chn and emath... WHICH are lik THOSE minor topics.... sianZ....

hv to make myself focus le... but then i need to feel the need to study... the urGe to... the stress... the pressure.... but there is no one thre to "generate" Them...

2007-09-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

my chem marks are atrocious... i jus need another one mark to get an A2... screw that stupid section b... made me fail... sianz.. hope that the Kohs will give me one more extra mark thru moderation which i doubt they will do so anyway...

add math wasnt up to my expectation either...onli 46/80... was targettin 60++/80.... but haiz.... to secure a B3 i hv to get 58/80.... which is totally mission impossible cause to me... i think tat paper 1 is much more easier than paper 2.... sianz....

totally forgotten abt the graduation ceremony until sharon ng say abt it durin the morn assembly.. if not i would hv gone home... the ceremony was borin intially with all the masses and prayers and i am not a catholic.... sleepy..zzzZZZZZ.... but the end part was interestin with all the graduation class videos and a special guest., Dr William Tan.... so cool.. personally i think tat our class video is the best... and there are quite a number of laughin too... a good sign.. the rest of the class videos are either too fast to see wat they are showin.. or not the people in the video are repetitive.. like the class onli got the same few people onli...

cant wait to get back my eng and bio resultd... my final hope for an A in this prelims for bio...

2007-09-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

a disastrous day.... all the results gotten back are not up to expectations... all damn damn damn lousy...

bio paper 1 was okay though... nv tot benny will get 38/40..tat is like so freakin high... for the bio pract... frandrie showed out my drawin to let everyone see.... she said it was well drawn and good... so happy^^... but then she said becoz of the vacuole tat i drew which i saw it from ying qiu paper made me lost 3 marks cause tat drawin is not right since it is more theoretical... and jing xuan said my handwriting looks like a female one jus becoz it is neat? dotx...

nv dream b4 tat i would screw up my chem paper 2 section b so badly.. 14/30... tot will get 20plus lor... koh shiling mark so strict de...and i chose the wrong qns to do.. jus becoz i see got more parts and then hv platinum so nv choose... im so stupid lor... T.T.... 29/40 for mcq... which is like damn lousy....

tot hist will do better than social studies but then the results proved otherwise... my social studies was better... 29/50 as compared to history 27/50... top 10 in lvl for ss... so elated...still a C5 overall.. bean got B4... he everytime so tyco de.. or maybe jus becoz he mug for it early and i jus study the day before the test? dun care le... now hv to chiong all the way for the final race... hv to pass eng and all my subj minimum onli can get B4 which is impossible unless i start now hvin no motivation to do so... how sia...???????????????/

2007-09-18T20:24:00.001+08:00

results day.... first time felt so nervous when gettin back the results... or maybe it is becoz this will concern whether if i am able to enter a jc or not...

chem pract grade was ok... though first time lose to marc by the tiny one marks that the stingy jean koh dun wan to give... still an A so far.. hope to get A for overall too... but hard...

emath was wonderful though lose to filbert who got like freakin high marks..96/100 and i got onli 88/100... 8 marks difference... but still the result was good for me.. sick when takin the paper 2 tat day itself... cant believe i won bean and marc since they so confident with their paper at the end...

i got a bad feelin that i cant pass eng... very bad omen.... haiz...

tmr gettin chem bio history and chs which i wan to get at least 2 A and 1 B here.... haiz... see my fate tme then.... T.T

2007-09-17T21:43:00.000+08:00

talks talks talks..... jc talks... poly talks... haven even started takin the o lvl already sch coming to give us talks abt gg into their sch which is like a bit useless? cause i doubt majority has "activated" their muggin skills yet... i wan to get into nyjc though... kinda like their chn enrichment there...haha but the cut off point is like below 10 which is like damn low for a stupid person like me? who constantly scored like 20++ point...

poly talks were like damn borin.... mass communication and tourism with all those crap in it... zzzzZZZZZ... sleepin pill lor... and i learnt a lesson from the mass communication presentation.... nv take mass communication in my whole life to prevent myself in makin a fool of myself.... the video they showed is like.... sianz... dunno how to describe....

hate it when sch end so early on mon and thrus and i still hv to go for my hmt lesson... i like sat at the bus stop for 2 hours jus to hv my time pass so i wont reach the sch too early... seein all the bus gg by...

tot today will go thru paper... last thrus take back paper... more than 20 came... then today go thru paper... onli 3 came includin me... instead... we did something tat i dun even know wat am i doin? and when the teacher gg thru the thing.. he keep lookin at me.. for wat thing lor? like i am naked in front of him for him to see...haha... before the lesson end.. he gave me last words... "try usin examples like these today to improve more on your compo writin in discussion to hv a better grade" but then i wasnt listenin.... it's like the lesson was planned for me???????????????????????????????

2007-09-16T21:20:00.001+08:00

a damn TIRED daY todAY... THE Wushu coURSE IS gettin Tougher and TOUgher EverYtimE... tODay AlmoST NO stReNgTh TO wALk bacK HoME duE TO ALL the tedIoUS WoRKOut Tat The TeaChER gavE...

At nOON... My parent fORCe mE TO Go suNTEC TO bUy MY ShoeS even THoUGH i DUN WAN Any... sianz.. STIll HV TO gO... tHEY Said thEy Saw a PaiR of ShOes thAt i SUre LikE de... AS iF.. THE sHOEs so HorRIble Lor... CrEaM cOlOuR.. whICh I HATE?..Haha... InStEAd mY MOm AND her FRens boUght 5 pAirS Of Shoes ANd i bECAme the cARrieR... tHE SLeEP MonSTer Get BeTter Out OF me.. maDe ME slEPt IN THE cAr and mY sis TOLd me tAT i eVEN mADE SoME nOISeS when I sLEep... So emBARrAssiN... WitH a STrAngER IN thE caR to SeE aLL tAt...

wENT to the NeW SUki SUShi with My paRent AgAIn.... THIS time So Many pPL... hv to WAIt fOR 2 HOurS... damN LOng... in The eND.. pASt My time SMSIn Bean ANd MarC... NV haD tO qUeue SO log jUS to gEt A MEaL B4... FIRst TIME...

i wAS dAMN BLOaTE... bEcomE THE rubBiSh bIN OF THe faMiLy AfteR My FAtHer... evERYThiNG uMP TO ME aND LEt mE FinIsh them up... ALMOSt feEL LikE voMITiN aFter FInisHIn Up EverYTHing... siANZ... I dun FeeL lIkE GG to eaT aNyMOre suSHI le... or MayBe i shoUlD HAD saiD It tOO fAST... haha...

KEyBoaRd sOpIlT aGAIn.. EvERYtiME lIkE THis... givE Me All sTuPiD COmbiNAtiONS OF cApiTaL and SMall LETtERs worDs...
THERE iS A pOSsiBIlIty TghAT rEsUlt wiLL bE RetUrNEd TMR... I dun wan To LOOK at ThEM.. ScREwed them oUT totalLy... OnlI WaN TO WIn bean In EmaTh cHEM aND PhYs THoUGH.. haha... bUT FaT hOpE for me...

2007-09-15T15:01:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time ever since i updated my blog... approximately 3 weeks le...gotta say out wat happen and my comments on the papers for my prelims in this one whole go...

20/08: higher chinese paper 1... the letter writing was horrible... dun even know how to do the qns... as for free wrinitn.. i definitely written out of point... coz the topic is abt the communication abt parents and their kids... but i wrote abt the love between parents and kids...

22/08: CME paper... even this paper is not even impt and everyone keeps sayin that it is a useless piece of paper to do.. and no need study de... but on the day itself... most of the class seems to be muggin on it... muggin on financial plannin...

23/08: higher chinese paper 2... a hot morn and a tired day.. hv to rush for the paper from my sch to another to take the paper...damn tired abt it... wat the consequences abt it? sleep durin the paper... roughly for 30 mins... then when find out gg no time... i suddenly became so alert and energetic... rush the paper... but still didnt complete in time.. then when handin in.. i found out soem qns on the first page.. i forget to do.. and the teacher was so disappointed when i left it blank...sianz.. another failed paper...

27/08: physics practical paper... didnt study for the thoery qns coz i tot there wouldnt be any to do... should hv been an easy paper if i study for it...

social studies paper... tot i did very well.. after all the meetin with jeffrey chan... however after the paper when discussin when frens... find out tat i gonna fail my sbq... coz i misread the soucres becoz of my damn horrible eng command... misintepreted "by no means".. tot it means definitely... sianz... hopes gone for CHS...

28/08: chem practical... should be able to get an A for this... quite easy... except for the entension qns abt outlining an experiment to take for soemthing(which i forget wat is it)... still abt to get 30 i guess...

29/08: eng paper 1... a no-no for letter writin and free writing... screwed them up.. i "translated" my free writin compo content after i think of the events in chn... sure hv a lot of mistakes in it... anyway my frens say out of point.. no high hopes anyway...

eng paper 2... a fine easy paper... except all my 5 vocab are wrong... the rest should be ok.. anyway i always fail them.. so dun realli care... HAHA....

elementary mathematics paper 1: a very very easy paper... those cant pass better go back to pri sch... and get their basics rite... except for the probability qns which i am very confused abt.. keep changin my ans here and there... haha... until my initial right ans become my final wrong ans...haha...

30/08: elementary mathematics paper 2... got diahorrea the day before... even vomitted on the mrt on my way back... sianz... then no strength to do. the paper was a goner... cant think properly... my frens got same symptoms like me too... headache diahorrea vomittin..this time.. we die together.. haha..

biology practical.... a really tough one... even hv to peek at my frens ans to know whther my ans is right or not... coz there should be a diff and both my ans are the same.. haha...

06/09: additional mathematics paper 1... shoudl be an easyy paper.. but in the end left 30 mins to do 5 qns... gosh... stanley tan sure kill me de...

07/09: additional mathematics paper 2... tougher than paper 1 for me but everyone say this paper easier... who cares.. stanley will ask me to drop it anyway... spend so much time o it still cant do well....

history paper... should be able to ge a 28 i think... didnt really study anway... onli study 3 out of 12... which is damn not safe to do.... but lucky...

10/09: physics paper 2... finish everything in less than 30 mins... coz the paper was jus as expected... tough tough tough... nv tot that the paper was full of calculations since i told all will be theory wise... but wrong.. on less than 5 marjks out of 50 on theory... sianz.. fail le... slept at midnight for it lor.. efforts all wasted...

11/09: chemistry paper 2... tot will be easy like SA1 and then i cant get top 10 in lvl again.. wrong wrong wrong.. the paper was way more difficult...i got startled by the first qns...and the whole thing already wrong le.. sianz...

13/09: biology paper... frandrie koh told bean that the paper will be tougher than SA1.. but the paper was alot alot more simpler...but haha.. i still cant do it.. coz nv study 6 chps which all come out durin the paper... sianz.. tot she will test more on the topics at the back...

14/09: physics and chem paper 1... final last day for everything... but still dunno how all the teacher set de... all so hard... keep choosin the wrong ans after my discussions with frens...

but wat done couldnt be undone since the prelims has already finish... celebations at the Suki Sushi.... i ate the most... omg... want to hv a diet but still ate so much... nvm since no one like me also.. grow fat fat also nvm... not even in relationship...kekez... haha...watched <881>..nv ever planned to watch a movie with frens... accompanyin frens to purchase a bag...go higher and higher up each lvl in the amk hub... then reach until the cinema lvl.. movie is being suggested..haha.. too bad jarryl couldnt accompany us... a nice movie but marc dun understand nor like it.. love their songs... dunno where to get them..

2007-08-21T20:03:00.000+08:00

wanted meet up jeffrey chan durin chn period since no lesson for me.. but then he said he is busy.. which is so contradictin coz i saw him gg into the staff room.. but nvm... meeetin him tmr from 2-5... sianz.. still hv to complete 2 and a half more seq qns.... doubt i will complete anyway...

had amath test...didnt do one qns...totally forget how to do tat qns... wasnt in class yesterday.. guess he went thru it but then i didnt listen... he say it was impt... sianz... think maximum i can get is 13/20...

william ng nv come to sch again like yesterday... play connect four the whole 2 period... wanted to do ss work.. but then... lackin of concentration...

something to rejoice today... i finally won bean and marc for chem... nv beat them in class test b4.. i got 16/20.. they got 14.5/20 and 11/20 respectively... so happy... i nv study still can get so high marks.. cant believe it...

2007-08-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

a total free day today.... jus like onli had 35 mins of lesson today... and finally marcus brought the long awaited harry potter to sch... to think he actually forgotten wher he had misplaced his book...haha... went out of class durin chn lesson...wanted to read harry potter but then play UNO instead with matthew marcus and bean.. later jarryl and saravanan joined in...

the chn ppl in class had pizza for the great effort for the chn o lvl... i hv no share... so sad T.T.... but then my results from last yr still beat most of them..kekez... so nvm.. who cares abt free pizzas.. i can buy them on my own anyway.. haha....

2007-08-15T22:29:00.000+08:00

homework time... pastoral care and emath lesson are nth... since i got 86/100.. hardly any corrections either... haha.. did amath.. but the qns are tedious...

use 35 mins to go thru a small qns... how a waste of time... and with prelims comin and less than 5 more lessons to go... stanley tan haven finish teachin the textbook yet... wan us to come back on sat for lesson..sianz... there goes my sleep sia...

went thru all the bio pract that we did b4... anyhow draw still get so high maeks.. my one portion marks is equal to marcus whole part... cool sia... also can do well in pract but jus always fail theory de... dunno y...

free period durin chem... ms koh shiling went to see the minister... big business.. heard stanley tan say that those who meet th eminister will hv a $200 raise in salary.. cool... but chem prelims paper wre given... hard to do lor... still we played Connect Four instead... won bean 6 in a row... unbelievable....

watch a video durin history lesson... the teacher nth to do sia... dun think the video watch le got any use... then physics lesson did the prelims paper 1... finish 40 qns all myself includin 8 gettin help... in less than 35 mins... which the paper supposedly should be 1 hr... but guess will still fail the paper anyway...

hvin bio test tmr... roughly know here and there... guess could pass... but then she will be damn disappointed in me... aiyaya... still cant concentrate with prelims less than 2 weeks away...

2007-08-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

chn teacher was so happy today abt the class chn o lvl results... she even wan to treat them to pizza though.. but it was none of my business.. me not included... haha... cause not one of them... but nvm...

first time i was so attentive durin ss lesson... planned to study amath but too engrossed... and i kinda screw up my amath test... mostly forget how to do... if not can get at least 15.. all careless....

tot no physic test today cause postponed. but then suddenly give a surprise test... sianz... got a lot of wrong... forget where is right and where is left...

assembly period... stanley tan was repeatin his words over and over again... almost in the same order and sequence that he said to us in class.. but then.. it is for our own good.. haha....

wantin to study early for bio.. but then ibro and me are like keep failin our test...coz we dun study tmr?..haha... cant concentrate and prelims is jus next week sia...

2007-08-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

a big day for majority today.. gettin back the result of the o lvl chn paper.. though none of my concern.. i still felt nervous abt it... also.. hvin o lvl eng oral today... screw it up totally... total disaster...

sweat damn much durin pe.... played badminton... the period was too short... so sad...

gotten back bio paper.. tot gg to faill but still ended up as one the best even with a score of 15/25.. highest onli 20/25.. phew.. won most ppl... wat was interestin is tat a debate session was gg on in class... between 1 person(Jarryl) vs 40ppl(the remaining class includin the teacher).. definitely jarryl lost it

lost to a lot of pplin the o lvl result but something not fair coz i onli get to take once and it is with all the chn pros.. and the june paper is much more easier than teh last year nov paper... wat worse is tat i nv complete my composition and failed my listenin comprehension.. roughly 3-4/10.. sad... onli gotten A2.. almost all the teachers expected me to get A1... so demoralizing...

fail amath badly.. 1/20... but i was targetin onli 2/20.. totally miscalcu;ated the whole paper... my mind got messed up by a stupid shadow qns... and the whole paper gone... but nvm... at least i know how to do them in the first place...

left class early to go for o lvl oral... tot i was calm down before gg to the teacher but then i got nervous.. stumbled my words through the passage.. doubt will do will for it.. the pict conversation was a nightmare... anyhow jus say the ans and describe the pict... conversation was worse... being asked wat is my favourite toy?(mickey mouse)why do i like it?(coz been with me for a lot of years?)u like traditonal games or electronics games?(traditional).. blah blah blah... last qns.. if i were to give u 100 bucks and bring u to a toy store.. wat will u buy?(nothin?) so u keep the money to urself? then i take it back...so wat u do durin ur pastime?(read)s if i bring u to a bookstore with also 100 bucks, wat will u buy?(chinese novels)
the teacher seems shocked by my ans... LOL....

2007-08-12T15:25:00.000+08:00

sick sick sick... woke up in the morn and found out my sorethroat still haven go yet... something even shockin today... i got a bleedin nose... guess my time is gg to be up soon... soon i hv to say bye to everyone esp that one special person... but who is the person???

tedious workout today... continuously run for one hour... almost went breathless... finally... got my sabre today... learnin how to use it next week.. but prefer usin the sword or stick better...

should i talk abt my trip on the cruise.. doubt soon... it will be a damn long story... tell onli those who wan to find abt it more... but i miss someone... want to tell everything to the person.. but i think not...

if i dun recover from my sorethroat tmr... i gonna fail the o lvl oral tmr... haiz... feelin like dyin soon

2007-08-06T23:10:00.001+08:00

tot will be gettin back the chem test paper... but didnt.. continued with lesson instead and i dun understand a single thing she is teachin... 3 chpts on organic chemistry and this is the toughest...

p.e... hvin retest for my pull up...tot i was gg to fail as usual... but to my surprise... i actually passed it... i dun even know how i am able to do it de... maybe it is jus luck.. or becoz of my frens... i dunno...

bio pract.. dunno wat to do there... forget the test for fats... whole class all dunno... maybe we are all gg to fail in o lvl... haha... phys pract.. wasted alot of time jus to balance the metre ruler on the knife edge.. so troublesome.. in the end jus anyhow write a value then submit.

talk talk talk in eng lesson...so borin...talk so soft as usual... almost sleep then i did my hcl hmk to make me stay awake..

hcl lesson.. a compo test... nv expected that the qns will be so hard... nv write a chn essay for half a yr le...almost forget how to start.. but anyway.. guess i gg to fail the paper... think i write out of point.. as usual...

amath test tmr.. still haven finish studyin... guess gg to fail... the topics i all forget how to do le... think i am destined to fail my o lvl....

2007-08-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

finally... today no need to go for wushu... save from a tired day... but was really sick today... a terrible sorethroat and a flu... dun feel like doin anything...

though sick.. but still hv to fetch my grandma from my uncle house... sick all throughout the journey... sianz..

ARGH... the sorethroat is so horrible... cant swallow anything down my throat... not even able to drink water... sianz...

2007-08-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

haiz... another day gone with an amath lesson in the morn... went thru revision test papers which i didnt really done them..haha... so jus waited for the ans... gotten back the amath test and i jus passed onli,.. all careless mistakes... if not can get 18... so sad... but nvm...

didnt really expected parents to wait for me to end my sch... being brought to boon keng for lunch..

a tired day... didnt hv the strength to do my work... prelims and o lvl are jus 20 odd days and 2 mths plus away respectively...but i am still slackin... still daydreamin... still so relax... hv to win gabr... but then his studies is better than me lo..

HAIX!!! WHO CAN HELP ME IN MY STUDIES AND HELP ME GET AT LEAST 11 POINTS FOR O LEVELS?!?!?!??!?!? WHO CAN????????????????????

2007-08-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

tot a ss test will be given today.. instead went thru the topic on "Diplomacy and Deterrence" again...

got a bad feelin abt my amath test.. even marcus ,the math genius recognised by stanley tan, failed it.. then how can i pass since i dunno how to do 3 out of 4 qns.?.?

had a test durin history lesson.. tot given a hour to do it but instead onli 30 mins... so nv hand up the work.. jus treat it tat i nv take.. so sad...

free periods after recess... no need to go for chn lesson but i was listenin to wat the teacher is teachin anyway.. but eng was a 'Connect Four' period...

went for sushi after sch.. marcus tan did wan to come but didnt coz no money. wan to lend me but he dun wan.. sianz.. nvm anyway.. had a funny time there... spoilt our 'brand' name totally... created so much noise.. ate too quickly until stomach pain... within 5 mins 4and a half plate gone.. haha

dozed off in the bus while gg home.. for the first time in my life... should be disgraceful when i slept... haha... but didnt care anyway... too tired...

tmr still hv to go for amath lesson and i hv not done the hmk yet... SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE!!!!

2007-08-02T22:06:00.000+08:00

chit chattin in emath with jarryl... even compete to do the emath prelims.. tot was gg to lose in the beginning... he went so fast... luckily.. i won and he did not even do some qns tat i tot he did le.. but nvm..

studied bio durin chem lesson... chit chat with jarryl again.. i am such a chatterbox.. but marcus was worse.. talk with jing xuan from morn to afternoon..

chem pract is such a demoralisin one and it happened to be the last for the yr before the pract.. the paper was so tough.. i did something so dangerous... was heatin the liquid but i suddenly stared into space... forget totally about the liquid and it spiiled... scary... and when i supposed to heat the glucose solution with the mixture.. the whole process went totally wrong... supposedly to warm the test tube gently.. though the mixture was boilin and spilled out.. i poured some of it away thinking tat the mixture will not flow out le... but i was totally wrong.. instead there was an "explosion"... though the test tube didnt crack... but supposedly to hv the solution as one-third of the test tube was left with onli less than 0.2 cm of solution... the remaining shot out and ended.. NOWHERE... i couldnt find the remainin liquid... it had jus totally disappeared... and my fren was scalded... HAHA!!!!

had a eng compo test again... this time i finish faster than marcus. since i know i am gg to fail.. no point on wastin so much time on it since i can use the time to study bio...

bio test was totally screwed... given the qns of 13 marks on the chpt tat i didnt study... so sianz.. definitely gonna fail this... but nvm.. ms frandrie will jus be very disappointed in me..

onli 2 ppl come for higher chn today.. includin me of coz... given test paper to do... i finish wat the teacher wanted in less than 15 mins and got onli 1 wrong... so surprised (maybe my chn standard jus improved tremenduosly without me knowing! haha.. impossible anyway...) the other guy used much more time got so much wrong... dunno y since it was an easy test paper...

ibro had no mood today.. he said he was depressed coz he agrued with fren.. dun really know wat happen.. he didnt tell me... haha... exams are comin and he,together with me, is still not concentratin on our work... everyday keep talkin... going to fail all our exams... hahahahahahaha!!!!

hmm... gg to Suki Sushi tmr... cant wait... haha... dunno how much can i eat to make the money i paid worth...???

2007-08-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

tot i was gg to be late this morn.. sis was still in the toliet when it was supposed to be my turn... wanted to study but didnt.. jus felt too sleepy...

study for chem durin emath lesson.. had a test today but didnt study for it.. durin the bio pract.. normal arguments were common.. fat here fat there stupid here supid there..same old stuffs... the pract was given a time limit... but didnt complete it on all... guess i may be gg to fail my bio pract in the o lvl...

first time hvin 3 tests in a row sia... without even the time to catch a breathe... physics chem then emath... and this 3 sure fail de...nv study for phys and emath since i reach home late..and chem left 2 more chpt to go... strugglin while doin the paper.. shakin my head as i do coz none of the qns i know the ans confidently.. gg to lose my "throne" for emath le...

ibro apologize and sought forgiveness... should i forgive him? he injured me so much lor... can anione tell me wat to do.. to forgive or not to forgive.. so confusin...

2007-07-31T20:28:00.001+08:00

haix.. jeffery chan agreed to meet us today in the morn but went absent without tellin us for sch today... make me rush to meet him..sianz... gg to ask bean and marcus to argue with him.. instead.. we went back to class and played stress.. was initially winning greg 4-0 but then too arrogant le.. lost one match.. but made my comeback str after... final score 5-1..

social studies was a totally free period as we are gg thru SBQ.. was playin Truth or Dare but got caught by evelyn tan since we keep talkin.. gotten to be separated up..haha.. but still me and bean sat together and played Connect Four instead.. 2-4.. lose shamefully.. one of them i lose within 5 moves.. sianz..studied for amath durin her lesson too..

the add math test was so complicated tat i misread the qns and my ans was horrible..
but nvm.. jus hv to learn from the mistakes i made..

william ng didnt come to sch again and ms koh shiling took over the period... went thru a new chapter "Marcomolecules".. so confusin.. dun really understand..

read harry potter durin emath lesson.. ms teo went thru the revision test paper... luckily she didnt catch me while i am readin.. phew..

sch ended.. played stress and Bridge.. and went to eat at the nearby coffee shop..
the anoxeric marcus went home sayin tat he got food at home.. probably he jus go home and hv a grain of rice for his lunch... or maybe two or three grains...

hated ibro or whoever the name he changed to... made me feel so disappointed.. promise me something in the end "dao" me... so sad.. T.T ..but nvm... gg to ignore him for a long long time... HATE HIM!!!!!!

went to the ICA to extend my passport.. sianz.. dun wan take cruise nxt wk but forced by parent... best if i get seasick..haha.. then hv to go home.. the queue at the ICA was damn long.. tot tat since it is a sch day.. there wont be too much ppl there... but instead the place was crowded with ppl... waited for 1 hour there.. sianz.. where the process was jus less than 5 mins... the person jus stamp a stamp on the passport and i can go le...

aiya.. tmr got chem and emath test.. hv to win marcus.. if not my "throne" of the "emath king" will be sntched... but i am jus so weak in probability... nvm... maybe i will jus fail both of the test tmr...

2007-07-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

a sad day today... luckily ms koh nv ask us to hand up the bio theory and pract worksheet... nv do finish... phew..

scolded by the soft-spoken peter crawshaw... i jus wan to get a piece of paper to write down the notes he wrote on the board... and wat i gotten was a reprimand from him... sianz...shouldnt hv tot of copyin down his useless notes written by his horrible handwriting...

something to rejoice is that william ng didnt come to sch today and we get to be dismiss early... HOORAY!!! went to hougang plannin to eat at SUKI SUSHI but then not enough money... becoz of bean jarryl and marcus... bean always nv bring enough money... last time he also not enough.. instead.. we ate at the kopitiam there...

went to amk sec for my higher chinese... almost slept in class.. damn sleepy.. being given 3 summary to do... but luckily... i got almost all the points rite... tot i was gg to fail it since i did it extremely fast... jus wantin to rest my mind..

hvin 2 tests awaitin for me tmr... i planned to fail both which may result the teachers to scold me until i hv to find a hole to hide... but jus too tired to study... but i wonder... will jarryl complete his SBQ in time tmr for jeffrey chan to mark?

2007-07-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

slept late last night watchin a show about street fighters in chn... damn childish but funny.. then i woke up late today... almost late for my wushu lesson... hv to rush my breakfast and hasten up to walk there... almost gotten a gastric pain..

the coach was damn strict today... legs were shaky jus after the warm ups.. but luckily... it wasnt a tough trainig after all... and he is organisin a trip to china and i wan to go..

but the sleepliness got better out of me from last night.. dozed off jus lyin on the sofa... but disturbed by mum to wake up and study.. sianz.. HATE IT!!!!!!!!

omg.. the bio hmk was totally insane.. i dunno how to do the pract worksheet ms frandrie koh gave... had to ask help from nat and marcus(about the bio thoery work) online... and ibro kept annoyin me and makin me angry with all his nonsense...makin me so irritated...

Scary... tmr hv to get back 3 test... which i will be sad to see 2 of them coz definitely fail them... Sianz.. the teacher should be so disappointed in me... HEHE.

2007-07-28T21:06:00.000+08:00

wasted a whole day in sch jus doin some revision in physics and go thru a test paper in add.math which i screw up even i know how to do...

the sleepin pill spoiled my whole day... scolded me for coming in late for lesson which i had missed a bus earlier on.. the conversation started like this,"You shouldnt come into to the class and be late as and when u like.. wat ur reason for being late?""i missed my bus.""wat should you do then? you should greet the teacher before coming...""sry mr ng.""...into class and apologize to the teacher."
But i flippantly ignored him... I JUS DUN LIKE HIM....The soporific quality of his voice induces the delta brainwave state in us.. makin us sleep for every lesson of his..

AND.. stress today was totally a screwed up game... lost almost every round... and the anorexic marcus was a total cheater...

my emath was so screwed... i jus forget to square the answer and then i jus missed the full marks..
so angry...

2007-07-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

prelims are comin while i am relaxin...
wonder how well will i do if i dun study hard for both prelims and o lvl...
i hv totally forgotten everything about this contents, concepts, formulas learnt...
with onli less than a mth time... i prepare to fail it...

HOORAY FOR ME!!!!!!

2007-07-27T17:04:00.000+08:00

a struggle in sch today...
two tests in a go and i hv prepared to fail both of them... always nv complete... a habit of mine le...
but something interestin happen today... JOEL almost fought MARCUS in Social Studies lesson ... marcus was actually shocked when joel wanted to hv a duel with him... and joel wanted to make marcus 'fly' which didnt turn out like at we expected eventually...

stress today was jus on my side.. 10-3... with a 6win streak in between...

blog blog blog

2007-07-26T22:04:00.001+08:00

i nv tot makin a blog is so difficult... i wasted 1 hr clickin and wat i get is nth....
how on earth am i gg to make a blog when i am so noob in it...

I JUS NEED SOMEONE WHO CAN HELP ME WITH THIS....

sianz... a first timer here....

2007-07-26T21:22:00.001+08:00

influenced by those ard me...
nv tot of the idea in makin a blog...
this seems hard for me to begin with since i had no knowledge of tis "stupid" blog i hv here.. so sianz..

surely.. this will be the worst blog ever for me....